Tuesday, 22 December 2009

Settling in

Well, I’m here.

The move went well, despite waking up that morning to a couple of inches of fresh snow. It might have been a bit dicey on the roads, and we did traipse slush into the carpets, but the tree-lined lane and the sweeping landscape around the new place was dressed-to-the-nines in elegant white.

My mum and dad helped me lug all my stuff from there to here (six carloads, gulp) and then to put everything away – a big hurray for mums and dads, but especially mine.

Fatty and Silver will be moving in on Boxing Day, and I can’t wait. I’m already wondering where they’ll choose for their favourite spots, and whether I’ll be disciplined enough to keep them out of the bedroom (probably not). I think they’ll love it here – it’s open fields for miles around.

So here I am.

I’ve just finished a beautifully written book by Barbara Feldon called ‘Living Alone and Loving It’ (I learn everything from books, so why not this?) and it’s full of diamond quotes. This one is my favourite so far, and it heads a chapter about loneliness:

We believe there is something essential we don’t have that’s obtainable. What we long for doesn’t exist, not anywhere. The ache is in the belief.

The ache is in the belief. Life is perfect just as it is. Sometimes it is more challenging to find the perfection, but perfect it is. The ache is in the belief.

Thank you all for all your lovely and supportive messages. I hope you all have wonderful Christmases, and extremely Happy New Years. I’ll see you in 2010.

14 comments:

robyn said...

I'm glad you are doing well. I'm sure your new home and new life will be lovely. :)

callieharper said...

I am also glad the you are settling in to your new home and have found Living Alone and Loving It. It gave my youngest daughter a lot of ideas and much comfort a couple of years ago.

And I am very pleased that a box arrived from Amazon-US today with The Blue Handbag and A Year of Questions. Lots of time off over the next 2 weeks so I can enjoy them right away!

Deep peace to you this dark season
May you be happy and well

Rachel said...

Hurrah for parents indeed. I would never have survived my break up with my ex several years ago without them.

It is a well known fact that a cat cannot be kept from a bedroom. I have tried everything, nothing works. Last night I found one of the felines under the duvet... sigh...

Have a wonderful Christmas and all good wishes for 2010

Anna said...

I hope you'll be VERY happy in your new home. I live alone, and I do, in fact, love it. A little too much, perhaps. I hope Boxing Day comes around quickly -- there's no better winter company than cats.

B said...

I'm glad you're there and settling in well.

The ache is in the belief? I just had a miscarriage a month or so back. This quote is simultaneously very comforting and utterly devastating. But I think it's probably true.

It will be a while before I can believe it, though.

Have a happy christmas.

(incidentally I didn't know this blog existed, somehow, until you linked it on fb recently. i have no idea how.)

Red Bird said...

Oh, dear Fiona- a very Happy Christmas for you... may the new year only bring you light and cheer.
<3

kathleen said...

Hi Fiona..glad to hear you are settling in and your move went well despite the snow! I lived alone for about 5 years in a little cottage which I loved but there was always that 'ache' for something more, and a feeling that I was in limbo. I'm now happily married with 2 daughters but I often look back on those single years and wish that I had allowed myself the luxury of really being present in my solitude. I guess I would have if I had known that this future was waiting for me - but we seldom do, do we? ...believe that the future will take care of itself in the best possible way. (I needed a copy of that book!).
Wishing you a blessed Christmas and everything that you wish for in 2010!
xox
p.s. have just finished reading The Blue Handbag and loved it, couldn't put it down until the final page. Am now about to start The Letters :-)

sonia said...

'the ache is in the belief' - I've been searching for a line and this helps. Expectations- those of others (usually imagined) and my own have been unhelpful. all the best with being present in the present. Your new house and surroundings sound beautiful.

Fiona Robyn said...

Hello Robyn. Thank you :) There is a friendly robin at the new place, so I don't miss my old robin too much... yesterday I also saw a great spotted woodpecker in the tree, so I can't wait to get my bird feeders out...

Callie - welcome to PW! It is a good book, isn't it? So many of them just seemed to be about dating and handbags, yuk. Thanks for ordering my books :) and deep peace to you too (what a lovely phrase).

Rachel - I fear you may be right about the cats :) especially when they first move in, anyway.... and yes, three cheers for parents!

Thank you Anna. Your house always looks so lovely in your photos. And I do think a cat or two is essential in wintertime (and summertime). Hope all's well with you!

B - I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I hope you're being looked after, and that you get some rest over the holidays. It's good to have you along.

RB - <3 back at ya!

Kathleen - wise words. So difficult to appreciate what we have when we have it. And I'm so pleased you enjoyed TBH - that's made my day. A very happy Christmas to you.

Fiona Robyn said...

PS Sonia I'm glad you like the line - and yes, I'm so lucky - it's a wonderful place to start anew. Will have to post some snowy photos of it!

Fiona Robyn said...

PS Sonia I'm glad you like the line - and yes, I'm so lucky - it's a wonderful place to start anew. Will have to post some snowy photos of it!

Terresa said...

This quote is a gem, you know my next line now (which is this: loving that quote & how it resonates with me, it will undoubtedly end up on my blog sometime in the future).

Wishing you a very Merry Christmas, from my home to your new one.

PS: Hurray for parents! Mine have helped me move numerous times and for that I'm infinitely grateful.

Jen Chandler said...

What a wonderful quote. I'm happy to hear the move went well. Hurrah indeed for mum and dad. Mine were always there for me and my mom is still always on speed dial if the need arises.

Here's to a beautiful new life in your new home.

Blessings,
Jen

Fiona Robyn said...

Feel free Terresa! Thanks Jen. And what a lovely story, Jane - thanks for sharing it with me/us. Love the sound of your cottage!